It started with the song “Your My First, My Last, My Everything.” It was the culmination of a move across the country from San Diego to Nashville, mom and son. His new apartment’s restaurant, The Goat, had a gender-neutral wash room where guys and girls used the same sink just like in Ali McBeal, my favorite 90s show. That turned into a long story about Barry White making a birthday performance for one of the main characters. This became our song and I would cry listening to it because I missed him in Nashville.
Not many songs profess the love of a mother to a son or vice versa. I can’t name any. Somehow, our son found a couple to let me know he’s thinking of me and loves me, the words perfect enough. I’m deeply moved because the lyrics tell me how much he’s thinking of me in a forever way.
As close to heaven as we’ll be for now.😇
The first was buried in a series of songs we heard at a coffee shop in San Diego. “Sweet Caroline” caught my ear , a song his buddies played around the firepit in high school. I alerted Hubby and TJ that I thought A. was getting our attention. They shrugged. It was the beginning of us wondering what was coincidence and what was heaven-sent.
Next, came Rusted Root, “Send Me On My Way,” a lesser-known song on one of my playlists but now playing at this coffee shop. My hopes raised it might be him. The words fit. He was telling us to let go.
“Here Comes The Sun,” his bonk-on-the-head tune to let us know he’s talking to us and it’s not just the Spotify algorithm.
Next up: “There She Goes” by The La’s. Hmm. Is this for an old girlfriend or me?
It didn’t sink in until later when it slipped into a playlist every so often. The most poignant moment was after spinning on my bike. I was stretching and thinking of him after my session and THE song played.
I burst into tears.
There She goes,
There she goes again.
Racing through my brain
And I just can’t contain
The feelin that remains.
There she blows.
There she blows again.
Pulsing through my vein.
And I just can’t contain
This feelin’ that remains.
To think I’m in his brain and his veins from the other side, Gulp. This is bigger than “My Everything.” I knew he loved me through rolled eyes and grunts, but not to this depth.
The latest profession of love, took me a few times to believe too. “What A Wonderful World This Would Be” by Sam Cooke. I read through the lyrics to see if I could surmise a sub-message. The lyrics locked on a section where I couldn’t scroll up or down.
“Take a screenshot!” exclaimed Hubby.
I did. Note the purple background.
💜💜💜
He did it again. He’s telling me he misses me and loves me in the most creative and thoughtful ways. He’s “My Everything” youngest son.
Happy Mother’s Day!
Love this! Thanks for sharing. Happy mother’s fay Francie.
Right back at ‘ya! I 💜
He keeps speaking to you….I wonder how many of us with loved ones in our circle are telling each other they are loved…??
But to speak to a loss and what would seem an empty place….He keeps reaching to you….angels on assignment…..
Because he love me…💜
Just wow Francie. It makes my heart so happy to know that you are being comforted from heaven by your son as you, Tony and TJ navigate through life without him.
Peace ☮️ and hugs to you this Mother’s Day.
(I especially love for you that the background for the peace sign emoji is purple 😎)
Ha! Good choice ☮️💟☮️ He’s trying!💜
I am so glad that you continue to find comfort. He loves you indeed 💜
Thank you Deborah. 😊💜
Beautiful, Francie. He’s talking to you through music and you are in tune.💜🎼
Clever Elena.💜🤓
I’m so glad he is sending you such comfort through music and you are finding it. Angel Alexander 💜💜💜
Aww. Yes, our Angel Alexandr.😇 He’s a crafty one.💜🤓
Love!
Sending you Mother’s Day love Francie!
Thank you Erin! Love that you are here.💜
It’s so special that you’re so tuned in and open to his messages. The love you two share is clearly very powerful, Francie💜
Yep. I”m so appreciative of my sweetie pie.💜
Oh, those beautiful music messages, Francie! Your love for each other will never end! Thanks for sharing.
Is it Odd, or Is it God?
Songs truly are God Winks.
I love it! I’ll take ti however it comds.💜
Yep. I love it!💜