It’s been a long 6 months since my last post as life has been impossibly frenetic. Personal travel, home projects, work trips, holidays and more work trips have kept me over stimulated and quite honestly worn out. I’ve had little time for reflection and one would...
The business of death is not easy, and as such, I have been mired in “Things.” I carry most of the heavy load in dealing with the loss of Alexander, as Francie will attest. I try my best to stay strong, but begrudgingly confess that 2 years of battling loss and...
I am not supposed to tell you I am sad or lonely. I am not allowed to be weak, anxious, sensitive, or vulnerable. I can only be strong. I must carry the financial burdens and responsibilities of life and family. I must be stable and consistent. I am supposed...
Recently, I’ve been asked how I am coping with the loss of Alexander now that a year and a half has passed. IMO, one’s path to define one’s new reality after a tragedy is as unique as an individual snowflake and so it is a difficult question to answer. My son no...
Sep 25th marked the one year “anniversary” date we lost Alexander. For weeks leading up to this day, I was twisted inside with foreboding dread, fear, and anxiety for the inevitable flood of raw memories that were sure to hijack my over-active mind....
“So how are you doing?” As innocent as it sounds, I often get tripped up trying to craft a split-second reply. And depending upon who is asking, I do not always know how to respond. Most of the time it’s “I’m alright” and I mean that, but sometimes its fakery...
The past few weeks have been rough for me for a lot of reasons. Work demands, travel stress, physical issues all hit me at once but the heaviest challenge is grappling with reliving the realizations of our time at this moment a year ago. Alexander has been very...
Francie did not want a cat. She’s ambivalent about pets and didn’t grow up with them. But our eldest son knew better and gifted us an SPCA adoption fee and a kitty carrier for Christmas. And that’s why Reggie the kitten happened into our lives in February. So why...
It’s there. You can feel it. It’s there all the time. It’s unrelenting, ever-present. Most of the time it sits on you like an uneasy, invisible elephant. We try to pretend it’s not there and “get on with it.” Acknowledge. Move on. Life’s unrelenting pressures...
Music and tragedy are mysteriously intertwined. Familiar songs you may have been listening to for years, maybe decades, suddenly take on a deeper meaning. These songs bond you to your fallen loved ones in a deep, soulful manner that only those who have...
